My Beloved Ah Pa

Lost in my thoughts
With you on my mind

March 16, the phone, the news

How I wish it wasn't true.

Hurt or anger,
I can't get it straight.

Just three months back,
you effortlessly blew those candles on your b’day cake.

Now you’re gone, no more Ah Pa.

Your pain has stopped,

Now it's my turn to feel .
Seeing you there lying in the emergency ward,

Tears pouring down as I walked through the door

Ah Pa, this isn't true

It can't be real.

I faced the hardest time of my life,

Holding your hand but no words to say.

Trying to believe,

What had happened was true.

Not wanting to let you go.

Still I try to understand,

why this happened to you, Ah Pa.

How do I get through my own inner pain

Thinking of you, am I going insane

Is this supposed to get easier with time?

I love you, I miss you, I wish you were here

Standing at your niche was my biggest fear

Out in the cold looking mausoleum hall

How could my Ah Pa be ashes in that urn?

How can it be, why is this true?

Oh Lord Buddha

Do take care of my Ah Pa !