Dilemma

To continue to not..?  Unable to decide.  Sigh..!  Should I further my studies, am I capable of doing my Masters ?  As my mind is still fresh and energetic (after having gone thru my 4 year degree), I think I should move on to a higher level.  But on the other hand, I doubt I have the capability and time to do it.  Had been sort off neglecting my boy for a long long time.  His growing age is important and he needs lotsa of motherly concern and care and guidance.  He's already in Std 4 and would be sitting for his UPSR in 2 years.  These 2 years are critical.  So if I continue my studies now (masters-2 years duration), then I would probably neglect him once again which I wish to avoid.  Nevertheless, if both of us do study together, this might give him the inspiration to achieve coz I could be a perfect role model to him.

Apart from time, my another obstacle is cash.  I needed to cough out a handsome amount of money for my masters.  A good sum of RM16K which I could save for Ah Boy's future etertiary education.  If i use up that $$ for myself, then indirectly I'm also using up Ah Boy's educational funds.

Time and cash, then commitment comes next.  How far can I concentrate on my studies at such 'advanced age'?  Going to be 40 next month.  My memory and concentration level depleting....!

Sigh....I'm in a total dilemma.  Should I or shouln't I..?  Any advice, dear readers ?

So near yet so far... 

    

Graduation Day

Ah....finally, I can shout to the entire world that I'm a grad.  Officially a graduate.  Four long grueling years of hardwork, I finally earn a piece of paper !!!!  I yearned for this day since the day I attended my first tutorial.  My convocation day was on 18th June @ PWTC KL.  I wasn't prepared for it, as a result, everything seems chaos and a bit clumsy.  Had a tough time adjusting my robe.  I've gotten the smaller size but it still abit too big for my petite figure.  Have I shrinked ?  hmmmm
My hair was messy and my face looked like a ghost due to fatigue.  Didn't sleep a wink the entire night before.  Heavy eyebags and pale skin.  Sigh...  I didn't look good at all on that day due to the overwhelming stress.   
However, the so many ruin downs didn't exactly spoilt the day though.  There was happiness and the anticipation was overflowing.  Am glad that I managed to step on stage to receive that priceless scroll after enduring so many obstacles and hardship.

I didn't have a good photographer to capture the moments of glory but all of it will stay in my memories for life.         

My updates...

Hi...I'm back after a month of disappearance.  Apologised for the absence. Been busy preparing for my convocation and my never-ending workloads in school.  Superbusy the entire month....

Day in day out, was tied up with work, attending endless meetings and courses...that I did not have much time left to update my blog.  Keep reading...