Dilemma

To continue to not..?  Unable to decide.  Sigh..!  Should I further my studies, am I capable of doing my Masters ?  As my mind is still fresh and energetic (after having gone thru my 4 year degree), I think I should move on to a higher level.  But on the other hand, I doubt I have the capability and time to do it.  Had been sort off neglecting my boy for a long long time.  His growing age is important and he needs lotsa of motherly concern and care and guidance.  He's already in Std 4 and would be sitting for his UPSR in 2 years.  These 2 years are critical.  So if I continue my studies now (masters-2 years duration), then I would probably neglect him once again which I wish to avoid.  Nevertheless, if both of us do study together, this might give him the inspiration to achieve coz I could be a perfect role model to him.

Apart from time, my another obstacle is cash.  I needed to cough out a handsome amount of money for my masters.  A good sum of RM16K which I could save for Ah Boy's future etertiary education.  If i use up that $$ for myself, then indirectly I'm also using up Ah Boy's educational funds.

Time and cash, then commitment comes next.  How far can I concentrate on my studies at such 'advanced age'?  Going to be 40 next month.  My memory and concentration level depleting....!

Sigh....I'm in a total dilemma.  Should I or shouln't I..?  Any advice, dear readers ?

So near yet so far...