Second chance

Becoming a single mum can be a tricky time but I'm glad that things has finally settled down. I've learnt to put the past behind and move on.

And now I'm ready to take the plunge back into the world of dating.

However..I'm in no hurry. I have the time and it's not my priority.

When I decide to dive into it, I realised that the rule has changed.

I have a child, so dating is no longer just about myself.

And while, I bear this in mind......

This new relationship is gonna take a combination of communication, confidence and consideration to make sure things run smoothly as desire. Pursuing it in a mature and responsible way. Honouring myself as woman first and mum comes next.


Guess...I deserve a second chance.

I have a date.

Today's Friday...put aside all work and worries ....let's enjoy the weekends.

I've a dinner date this evening.

I have a dinner date tonight, yes dinner. We had several luncheon meetings previously but today we progressed to dinner. (Hey..just a casual friendship...and see how it develops from here).

So now I am going to put a little make up and dress a little nicer with few pieces of nice jewelry.

It would be a simple dinner. We would be opting for a Jap. restaurant (I requested). I like the ambiguity in a Japanese environment.

Food and more conversation (similar wave length).

.. but most likely I will be in my usual self ..I can be talkative as the parrot and other wise tongue tied...it depends on the topics.

Dinner is not so bad as I thought but it is fun any way.. and I don't usually meet new people.. therefore..am a little nervous.

However ...I am just going to enjoy myself... take a deep breathe and relax.

I am glad I have some place to write now and release some of my nerves before he arrives.

Thanks for reading my blog...

Mural Painting

I am planning to draw a mural painting at the entrance of my library. Since we are currently having a large group of trainee teachers undergoing their practical stint at my school (for a duration of 3 months), I think it would be great to make use of their expertise to do this chore for me.

I don't intend to bully them la. But they need to contribute a project work during their stay here. It's part of their training procedure. And it's stated in their coursework.

I will inform my boss regarding this idea.

I had thought of a nice phrase for the mural.

"It's better to be a bookworm rather than a lazyworm"

Do you have any other suggestion ?

Today differs, I took a noon nap.

I just woke up from a nap a while ago.

I usually don't indulge in this habit and I seldom take noon naps even though I'm dog tired....Whenever I nap too long during the day, I would I wake up in a strange state ! I have this distant, solemn, otherworldly type of feeling deep down. I become very reflective ...superficial self.

That's why I often avoid naps at noon.

But perhaps today was a bit differ.

Why was I napping?

There are a couple of reasons.

1. I was pretty stressed out...and I wanna to be "lazy" for the rest of the day.


2. The weather was so humid and it made me sleepy.


3. The air cond was in full blast at the lowest ever temperature...Fabulous


4. My cozy bedroom was so damn inviting just now....minus the sleeping partner or else it would be oomph..! "WINK

This week was really a long week ~ lots going on both at home and school. Ain't enough sleep at night. Last few weeks were bad as I was rushing through my assignments.

My entire body are aching due to the "coolie job" I did in school. FYI, I'm in charged of the school library. Yes..the entire library is run by yours truly ALONE. Yes..I do have a few teachers whom are appointed to assist me..but as you know lah..I have this weakness to delegate work to others. As a results, the workloads are siphoned to ME alone. It's like "one leg kicks all". Will blog about my Librarian Post ( Guru Perpustakaan & Media) next time.

Last week, I've got a new set of book racks to replace the old ones. The old racks were not strong to uphold the heavy weight of those thick bulky dictionaries, encyclopedias...

I had to reorganised the entire library (all by myself). Played the role of "Eric Deco" (imagine lah), I redesign the lay out of the entire library. Push, drag, pull.......the tables, chairs, racks, shelves..of vary sizes.....! I was lucky as I had gotten the help of a few strong Year 5 boys. I "kurang ajar" today....hey not that I'm rude but literary means that didn't teach much today. I gave some revision exercises to my pupils while I busied with the work.

Both arms are aching terribly due to carrying the loads of heavy furniture and books. Ouch...

Need someone to massage my aching arms....!!!!!!

Since I could find anyone who is willing to be my masseur....I went to sleep with the hope the pain would disappear when I wake up...

That answers to the previous question.

Todays differs...and I took a noon nap...

I need a break

I am blogging right now to release tension...!

With the amount of workloads and stress that I'm facing at school....I'm wishing that I'm 55 today..so that I could bid farewell to all these baggage on my shoulders.

The gunny sacks of loads comprises of a percentage of "pressure, headaches, tension, heartaches". All of them are the main ingredients of "STRESS".

Yup I spelt the word correctly..don't I ?

I need a break....away from work..work..work.

These had taken a great toll on my life being....

So much paperwork...which aren't relevant to my core business @ teaching. Submission of unnecessary documents, files and reports which are consuming a whole lots of my working hours. The education department kept demanding for all sorts of paper documentations. Ya...thought of going 'paperless" to lessen our workload..but it never happen.

Just imagine the number of trees being sacrificed for this purpose !

In addition to to paperload, I'm also facing with lots of disciplinary and attitude problems of our current pupils in school. Their behaviour...their laziness, their lack of interest in studies, ill discipline.......

And the current trend of parents....attacking teachers in schools. Parents seems to believe their children more than the teachers. Children today rarely respect their teachers.

How do you expect a child to respect his/her teacher when he/she is being brainwash daily to look down on teachers ?

Even the mass media are aggravating the situation by condemning teachers in their daily reports. Take a look at today's society....do they still respect Cikgu like those glorious days ?

Aiyo...over the weekends, I was in a rather good mood after a nice facial session....now I'm back to my usual tensed mood just two days apart.

Sigh...I need a break.

How about a lil pay rise..so that I could spend a lil on a short vaccation..?????