Anything wrong...?

Am feeling pretty down lately.  Can't figure out the reasons !  Many a times getting lost and can't seems to find the meaning of life..?  What happened..?  I don't know.

Just being plain healthy with no sickness, neither my school nor home commitments gotten entangled....nope..everything is running pretty well. 

But the pain (not the physical though).  The pain grew and grew and I began to experience suicidal thoughts.  I realised that life for me was at a desperate impasse.  I thought of the driveway where I can sit in the car, inhaling carbon monoxide.  I stared at the static ceiling fan in my room as a place I could hang myself.  I looked at sharp objects as to be implement on my wrist.  The array of pills are meant as a chewy titbits for my consumption while sitting here. 

Hmmmmmm.....what has gone wrong with me lately ?