I am not feeling too well today. Felt a ticklish sensation in my throat throughout the day. Felt tired and lethargic while teaching. Just aren't feeling well.
Must be due to my lacking of sleep the past weeks. The stress must have overpowered my immune system and created a havoc in my body.
As soon as I experience that sore, uneasy feeling on my throat, I would always rush for a glass of water, add 2-3 tablespoons of salt. Gargle rigorously (of course in the privacy of my home...la). You know la..with the unladylike sound and gesture...!
According my family doc, "Warm salt water can remove viruses from the tonsils that lie at the base of the throat region. These viruses are the main culprit for colds and influenza when they spread through our body".
This remedy always work for me....though not all the time but the success rate is almost 90%.
Apart from salt gargling, I would camel myself and attempt to drink plenty of fluid. And get some sleep (which is impossible coz I have other commitments..ie my tuition classes, my studies, chaufeuring my boy for his classes, housework...etc). Hectic...
Alright, I'm going to bed a lil earlier today. Rest assured that my body is working hard to destroy those viruses and getting rid of them while I sleep.
Good nite.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Poor child
Am I pushing my 7 year old boy too MUCH ?
Seems like driving him up the walls with my high expectations..!
Seems like robbing away his childhood life...!
Seems like pressuring him too much !
YA..lots of seems..
I want him to participate in something different, a lil outside of his comfort zone as I believe that's what he'll facing in the next decade. I'm attempting to prepare him for the future...
I understand that this might be very difficult for him but only at this initial stages...but he'll soon overcome the obstacles.
I wanted him to be multi lingual ..that's why I placed him in a Chinese school. Don't be like a "banana lady" like mummy. You see...I am actually "Pua Tang sai" meaning just an average in English as well as BM. Therefore, it's rather embarrassing to call myself a banana...judging from my English..I'm no Shakespeareans. And I no good in Pantun sajak as well. I'm neither good in English nor BM....that's why I call myself "half tank full"...
Alrite..where was I just now..? Oh yes..my 7 year old. I don't want him to have an easy life at such a young age. Like the Malay sayings.."susah susah dahulu senang-lenang kemudian". I want him to experience the hardship and enjoy the fruits of his labour later.
The trauma that he experienced when he was lil did "sliced away" his confidence. Naturally it was partly my fault..our fault..the adult faults. I can't help it nor avoid it though.
His confidence was lacking and he was emotionally unraveling then.
But gradually...I managed to bring back his confidence. Thanks to my bestfriend and her family. Not forgeting a close friend whom had been a father figure to him.
Alright let move to a brighter side...my boy is now a happy child. He's enjoying every moment and minute....
The only thing that he hates ( I think) ...probably is the numerous mandarin coaching he has to attend....no choice la....I am unable to guide him as I'm illiterate. Learning to master the chinese strokes aren't an easy chores. It's a tedious job. Copy writing endless pages of chinese characters....is indeed boring...but NO CHOICE..la.
Though I sympathise with him but no choice la. This is for his own good.
Am I a kiasu mummy..?
Seems like driving him up the walls with my high expectations..!
Seems like robbing away his childhood life...!
Seems like pressuring him too much !
YA..lots of seems..
I want him to participate in something different, a lil outside of his comfort zone as I believe that's what he'll facing in the next decade. I'm attempting to prepare him for the future...
I understand that this might be very difficult for him but only at this initial stages...but he'll soon overcome the obstacles.
I wanted him to be multi lingual ..that's why I placed him in a Chinese school. Don't be like a "banana lady" like mummy. You see...I am actually "Pua Tang sai" meaning just an average in English as well as BM. Therefore, it's rather embarrassing to call myself a banana...judging from my English..I'm no Shakespeareans. And I no good in Pantun sajak as well. I'm neither good in English nor BM....that's why I call myself "half tank full"...
Alrite..where was I just now..? Oh yes..my 7 year old. I don't want him to have an easy life at such a young age. Like the Malay sayings.."susah susah dahulu senang-lenang kemudian". I want him to experience the hardship and enjoy the fruits of his labour later.
The trauma that he experienced when he was lil did "sliced away" his confidence. Naturally it was partly my fault..our fault..the adult faults. I can't help it nor avoid it though.
His confidence was lacking and he was emotionally unraveling then.
But gradually...I managed to bring back his confidence. Thanks to my bestfriend and her family. Not forgeting a close friend whom had been a father figure to him.
Alright let move to a brighter side...my boy is now a happy child. He's enjoying every moment and minute....
The only thing that he hates ( I think) ...probably is the numerous mandarin coaching he has to attend....no choice la....I am unable to guide him as I'm illiterate. Learning to master the chinese strokes aren't an easy chores. It's a tedious job. Copy writing endless pages of chinese characters....is indeed boring...but NO CHOICE..la.
Though I sympathise with him but no choice la. This is for his own good.
Am I a kiasu mummy..?
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Kiasu mummy
Each of us fails from time to time.
If we are wise, then we accept these failures as a necessary part of the learning process.
However, all too often, we adults tend to deny this right to our children.
Adults like to convey either by words or through actions that “failure is serious and something to be ashamed of and top performance is indeed a must in life.”
Children are psychological affected….their self esteem. The trauma they often faced as a result of the ‘load’ laid upon their petite shoulders.
One child which is subject to this kind of pressure is none other than my boy.
As a ‘kiasu mother’ living in such a highly competitive world…I seems to be pushing my child to the limits. Being a ‘banana lady’ myself and regretting over this fact, I made a ‘smart decision’ to enroll my son in a SRJK (C) @ Chinese school. Guess…I made the right move. Or other wise…?
I personally feel that knowing an extra language would be a bonus for his future. In addition, the environment in a Chinese school would be good for him too.
Whenever my boy comes home with a “not~so~good” results , he would usually receive a 'whack’ or long nagging from me. Perhaps as a teacher myself, I don’t accept ‘careless mistakes’ or forgetfulness. Guess that’s a bad side for being perfectionist’s son.
With serious thoughts about my actions, I think it’s not wise to put such pressure upon this poor fella.
Same goes to my side.....I'll be sitting for my uni exam next month. What if the table is turn around. My son would expect me to score a four flat as well....and if I don't do so.. can he also nag on me all day long...?????
Alright son. Let's make it a win win situation.
If we are wise, then we accept these failures as a necessary part of the learning process.
However, all too often, we adults tend to deny this right to our children.
Adults like to convey either by words or through actions that “failure is serious and something to be ashamed of and top performance is indeed a must in life.”
Children are psychological affected….their self esteem. The trauma they often faced as a result of the ‘load’ laid upon their petite shoulders.
One child which is subject to this kind of pressure is none other than my boy.
As a ‘kiasu mother’ living in such a highly competitive world…I seems to be pushing my child to the limits. Being a ‘banana lady’ myself and regretting over this fact, I made a ‘smart decision’ to enroll my son in a SRJK (C) @ Chinese school. Guess…I made the right move. Or other wise…?
I personally feel that knowing an extra language would be a bonus for his future. In addition, the environment in a Chinese school would be good for him too.
Whenever my boy comes home with a “not~so~good” results , he would usually receive a 'whack’ or long nagging from me. Perhaps as a teacher myself, I don’t accept ‘careless mistakes’ or forgetfulness. Guess that’s a bad side for being perfectionist’s son.
With serious thoughts about my actions, I think it’s not wise to put such pressure upon this poor fella.
Same goes to my side.....I'll be sitting for my uni exam next month. What if the table is turn around. My son would expect me to score a four flat as well....and if I don't do so.. can he also nag on me all day long...?????
Alright son. Let's make it a win win situation.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
A day of rest
Well, I had a great break today. I woke up late ...after a thorough rest. Had a sumptuous dim sum brunch with my boy. After sending him off to school, I settled some errands @ bills, payments and installments. My school took an extra day off today...that's why I'm not working ! I went to Jusco on the pretext of doing some window shopping. But ended up ....burning a small hole in my purse. Normal la..when a woman visits a shopping complex.
Bought a few Ts for my boy. He needs some new clothes to fit his growing body. Also reward myself with a nice blouse. Bought half a dozen of Apple Donuts (everyone is talking about it....so I just wanna to have a taste of it...what so special about it huh???). Expensive lo...Guess I can only afford to eat them once. Or is there anyone out there willing to give me a treat ? I wouldn't mind if it's free ! The dough was soft and tangy (nice)..but not the toppings..too sweet.
Dropped by at boy's school during his recess. He was surprised to get such a cute looking donut. His classmates were eagerly waiting to share the small piece of donut with him. However...I really could not afford to buy them those donuts...damn expensive. I don't mind offering them the MakCik's donut which is a lot more affordable...40 sens per piece..!
Back home...I did some spring cleaning @ store room. Had not been there for months. Luckily... no cockroach nor rats welcoming me. Many junks got to go to pave way for newer junks..! Ended up keeping them as I don't have the heart to discard them. Who knows..in the near future I might need them. RECYCLE....
Prepared dinner. Two simple dishes and a soup.
Stir fried capsicum, onion with luncheon meat
Egg omelette
ABC soup @ carrot, maize, broccoli.
Hope to catch up with some studies tonight.
Bought a few Ts for my boy. He needs some new clothes to fit his growing body. Also reward myself with a nice blouse. Bought half a dozen of Apple Donuts (everyone is talking about it....so I just wanna to have a taste of it...what so special about it huh???). Expensive lo...Guess I can only afford to eat them once. Or is there anyone out there willing to give me a treat ? I wouldn't mind if it's free ! The dough was soft and tangy (nice)..but not the toppings..too sweet.
Dropped by at boy's school during his recess. He was surprised to get such a cute looking donut. His classmates were eagerly waiting to share the small piece of donut with him. However...I really could not afford to buy them those donuts...damn expensive. I don't mind offering them the MakCik's donut which is a lot more affordable...40 sens per piece..!
Back home...I did some spring cleaning @ store room. Had not been there for months. Luckily... no cockroach nor rats welcoming me. Many junks got to go to pave way for newer junks..! Ended up keeping them as I don't have the heart to discard them. Who knows..in the near future I might need them. RECYCLE....
Prepared dinner. Two simple dishes and a soup.
Stir fried capsicum, onion with luncheon meat
Egg omelette
ABC soup @ carrot, maize, broccoli.
Hope to catch up with some studies tonight.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Mission Accomplished
Yesterday I finally completed the final assignment due for this semester......oh what a relieve !!!!
I had my first good night's sleep in almost three weeks last night. The slumber was so peaceful. Perhaps, the loads were taken off my shoulders when I completed ALL my assignments. I felt so much lighter now. I only had 4 hours of sleep for the past few days as I was struggling with my assignments. At one moment, my mind even went blank ! I've gotten so frustrated...and almost gave up ! It was indeed stressful which caused all those sleepless nights. I was so worried then.
Though I had completed four assignments for this sem.....however I still have to face another hurdle.....my exams next month. I haven't touch any of my four books as yet because I had been concentrating on my assignments. This sem, I vow to finish my revision much earlier.
I had my first good night's sleep in almost three weeks last night. The slumber was so peaceful. Perhaps, the loads were taken off my shoulders when I completed ALL my assignments. I felt so much lighter now. I only had 4 hours of sleep for the past few days as I was struggling with my assignments. At one moment, my mind even went blank ! I've gotten so frustrated...and almost gave up ! It was indeed stressful which caused all those sleepless nights. I was so worried then.
Though I had completed four assignments for this sem.....however I still have to face another hurdle.....my exams next month. I haven't touch any of my four books as yet because I had been concentrating on my assignments. This sem, I vow to finish my revision much earlier.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Rain And Asignment
It's raining dogs and cats outside....gushing down in torrents and I'm still here struggling with my paperwork. I'm half way through it. Our of 4 questions, I have already completed 2...meaning that it's 50% completed....great achievement la. Give a pat on my shoulder.."Well done..Ann...keep up the good work !"
Actually..I'm racing the clock as I only have one week to meet the dateline. What a relief..I still have two days off for Diwali to get things settled.
The past few days...my brain had been pretty stubborn with no contributions at all.
I thought that I had been re-inspired to write. ... Maybe if I didn’t waste so much of my brain power on meaningless piece of essay....which gone out of topic.
I've gotten the idea of working smart. Since, I'm so confused on the questions....this time around I'm going to perform the 'cut N paste' strategy on this assignment. I had found a few writings on this topic from the net. I'm going to reorganise the ideas and put them into meaningful chunks. "Plagiarism"...ya the dreaded word in the world of writing. No choice la...I'm lost.
Actually..I'm racing the clock as I only have one week to meet the dateline. What a relief..I still have two days off for Diwali to get things settled.
The past few days...my brain had been pretty stubborn with no contributions at all.
I thought that I had been re-inspired to write. ... Maybe if I didn’t waste so much of my brain power on meaningless piece of essay....which gone out of topic.
I've gotten the idea of working smart. Since, I'm so confused on the questions....this time around I'm going to perform the 'cut N paste' strategy on this assignment. I had found a few writings on this topic from the net. I'm going to reorganise the ideas and put them into meaningful chunks. "Plagiarism"...ya the dreaded word in the world of writing. No choice la...I'm lost.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Assignments
One assignment pending....dateline extended to Nov 2nd. Thus far, I had officially completed 3 papers. Got 'stuck' with this last piece....questions a bit confusing. Therefore I need to obtain certain clarification from my lecturer on my next tutorial (tomorrow).
Hopefully, I'll get good grades for all my hardwork. Seriously, I need these marks badly... in order to maintain good grades this semester.. Well...I haven't been studying lately due to my work commitments in school (approaching year end...lots of reports to settle).
Studying is tough...what more being a part time student.
Not only the assignments are overwhelming but also preparing for exams at the end of each semester......Not forgetting the volume of work that has to be undertaken is too much too many! In addition, I'm taking extra papers...which make the load heavier. My "Pendidikan Moral" paper is also giving me constant headaches as I'm not good at it. Simply not my cup of tea...as I don't and never teach this subject in school.
Studying is hard !
Hey..it's ain't easy to be a part time student as I had to juggle my studies with other jobs and chores....namely my teaching job, my tuition classes, my motherly duties, running the household....the list goes on. Meaning that, inevitably reduced my free time to nil.
Nevertheless, I managed to develop one important skills @ "multi tasks" .
I became more organised and managed my time better. The good point of being a part time student. Not only gain knowledge but experience too.
I occasionally confided to my best friend over this "stressful life". She always encourages me to work harder and never give up.....so what more could I say ?????? Thanks for being such a wonderful friend, Ms. G.
For the past weeks, I had practically put aside all my books and concentrated solely on my assignments. I'll probably be in the "lost world" during tomorrow's tutorial sessions as I did not prepared nor read up anything.
Ultimately, I hope to settle my last paper during this Diwali break. After that, I will have to start preparing my my exams (end Nov). Phew......tension.
I could hardly wait for Christmas break where all my exams/assignments are over. I've planned to go for a short vacation before school resumes in January the 5th.
A well deserved holiday. Looking forward to it. Hooray !!!!!
Hopefully, I'll get good grades for all my hardwork. Seriously, I need these marks badly... in order to maintain good grades this semester.. Well...I haven't been studying lately due to my work commitments in school (approaching year end...lots of reports to settle).
Studying is tough...what more being a part time student.
Not only the assignments are overwhelming but also preparing for exams at the end of each semester......Not forgetting the volume of work that has to be undertaken is too much too many! In addition, I'm taking extra papers...which make the load heavier. My "Pendidikan Moral" paper is also giving me constant headaches as I'm not good at it. Simply not my cup of tea...as I don't and never teach this subject in school.
Studying is hard !
Hey..it's ain't easy to be a part time student as I had to juggle my studies with other jobs and chores....namely my teaching job, my tuition classes, my motherly duties, running the household....the list goes on. Meaning that, inevitably reduced my free time to nil.
Nevertheless, I managed to develop one important skills @ "multi tasks" .
I became more organised and managed my time better. The good point of being a part time student. Not only gain knowledge but experience too.
I occasionally confided to my best friend over this "stressful life". She always encourages me to work harder and never give up.....so what more could I say ?????? Thanks for being such a wonderful friend, Ms. G.
For the past weeks, I had practically put aside all my books and concentrated solely on my assignments. I'll probably be in the "lost world" during tomorrow's tutorial sessions as I did not prepared nor read up anything.
Ultimately, I hope to settle my last paper during this Diwali break. After that, I will have to start preparing my my exams (end Nov). Phew......tension.
I could hardly wait for Christmas break where all my exams/assignments are over. I've planned to go for a short vacation before school resumes in January the 5th.
A well deserved holiday. Looking forward to it. Hooray !!!!!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
One more assignment
What a relieve....I managed to complete one more assignment (HBME2103-Pendidikan Moral Tahun 2) a while ago. Tomorrow, will proof read it and then print and bind. Hooray. I still have one left and the date line is 26th of this month. I'm way ahead of my schedule and I'm truly happy about this accomplishment. Thanks to that 9 days break last week which allowed me to fully concentrate on the completion of my assignments.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Super Tiring Days
One week break..9 days to be precise. A good opportunity for me to pay full attention on my course-work assignments (four altogether). Managed to complete only two (fully completed and binded). There other two still pending....as I'm rather blurr with the questions.
Being a perfectionist as well a careful person, I had 'wasted' quite a lot of time going over my writings (proof-read) many many times. Believe it or not, I stayed till the wee hours just to go through each and every words, sentences and paragraphs. It's not one or two pages...but 30 over pages per assignment. Eyes almost go blind now.
I retired to bed almost 4 am since Raya day. I noticed a slight blacken rings beneath my eyes....scary. I need to take a break from work. I need to hibernate like a koala bear tonight. Need to replenish my lost energy. And then dream of having a gorgeous hunk or geek also doesn't matter....sitting in front of my laptop helping me to finish the rest of my assignments.....wow.. on my behalf. It would be a dream comes true if tomorrow morning I wake up to see my assignments lying neatly on my table. This would be better that striking lottery.
Well..after today, I'm going to relax a little bit. This weekend, I don't intend to touch anything concerning my studies. For two solid days, I just want to sleep and laze around. My brain and mind needed a thorough rest.
I intend to go for a facial session, get my hair done ...perhaps a new style..! Buy my self some new clothes as a SELF REWARD.
Being a perfectionist as well a careful person, I had 'wasted' quite a lot of time going over my writings (proof-read) many many times. Believe it or not, I stayed till the wee hours just to go through each and every words, sentences and paragraphs. It's not one or two pages...but 30 over pages per assignment. Eyes almost go blind now.
I retired to bed almost 4 am since Raya day. I noticed a slight blacken rings beneath my eyes....scary. I need to take a break from work. I need to hibernate like a koala bear tonight. Need to replenish my lost energy. And then dream of having a gorgeous hunk or geek also doesn't matter....sitting in front of my laptop helping me to finish the rest of my assignments.....wow.. on my behalf. It would be a dream comes true if tomorrow morning I wake up to see my assignments lying neatly on my table. This would be better that striking lottery.
Well..after today, I'm going to relax a little bit. This weekend, I don't intend to touch anything concerning my studies. For two solid days, I just want to sleep and laze around. My brain and mind needed a thorough rest.
I intend to go for a facial session, get my hair done ...perhaps a new style..! Buy my self some new clothes as a SELF REWARD.
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