The Mystical Portrait~4
In the dilapidated mansion....
John and I were hugging and kissing passionately.
With his strong arms, John swiftly scooped my petite body up.
He carried me to the bedroom upstairs.
He made me sit on the sofa.
He then leaned forward and kissed me.
He kissed me all over…including…I felt the sensation that I had never felt before.
It was the most erotic kiss of my life.
I could see he was turned on too just as I was.
He started to remove his shirt ..oh boy….He had such a sexy body.
Just looking at it turned me on.
He kneeled down in front of me and started stroking my face.
His hands were soft and he whispered to me how beautiful I was and how much he wanted me.
I was so turned on.
I just wanted him there and then.
So he took me by the hand and led me to the bed.
We lay side by side on the bed.
He was stroking my face and kissing me.
Then his hands started wandering down my body.
He noticed my two lovely apples hidden behind my brassire.
He then moved his hands further down and then put them under my dress.
He unzipped my skirt as he kissed my body.
He took off his jeans and Calvin Klein briefs and was completely naked.
He took off my blouse as he kissed by body.
He gently caressed my jewels and repeatedly told me how gorgeous my body was.
The next moment..........we were......
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
John and I
The Mystical Portrait ~3
I was in the dilapidated mansion.
This time around....it was different.
The gloomy hallway was no longer filthy nor filled with spider webs. It was spanking clean and filled with enormous furniture and exclusive showcase of antiques.
I started to explore the entire place.
Glittery ware....crystal, silver...were neatly laid on the elegant dining table.
At a close inspection, there was an array of delicious food welcoming it's guest. A bottle of wine was noticeable at one corner.
A grand feast...but where's the host ?
"Ann....you're here already". I heard a voice.
I turned to that direction .....ah yes this gorgeous hunk standing right before my eyes.
Alas, I see "John" in person.
I was delighted.
It's John...it's John.
I knew very well....he's John.
It's ain't difficult to distinguish this charming figure.
Was it a dream....one of my nightmares..?
No....I wasn't dreaming ...it's indeed him.
John moved closer...presented me with a beautiful bouquet of fresh-cut flowers.
I loved the sweet scents.
I was so impressed with his gestures.
He held my hands and led me to the dining table.
He offered me a glass of Chardonnay.
John and I had a fabulous dinner.
Would you care to dance?" he queried.
We stood face to face as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
It felt so good to have him so close.
John bent to kiss my cheek....my neck...my earlobes.... and gently nibbling the tender skin.
While I responded in delight.
As our lips made contact....I was overwhelmed....
We then...........kiss passionately.
I definitely felt a spark during the kiss because I’d never felt anything like it before.
I felt a thrill...and so was he.
What's next ?
...stay tune for the next episode.
Make sure you read my in coming postings....
I was in the dilapidated mansion.
This time around....it was different.
The gloomy hallway was no longer filthy nor filled with spider webs. It was spanking clean and filled with enormous furniture and exclusive showcase of antiques.
I started to explore the entire place.
Glittery ware....crystal, silver...were neatly laid on the elegant dining table.
At a close inspection, there was an array of delicious food welcoming it's guest. A bottle of wine was noticeable at one corner.
A grand feast...but where's the host ?
"Ann....you're here already". I heard a voice.
I turned to that direction .....ah yes this gorgeous hunk standing right before my eyes.
Alas, I see "John" in person.
I was delighted.
It's John...it's John.
I knew very well....he's John.
It's ain't difficult to distinguish this charming figure.
Was it a dream....one of my nightmares..?
No....I wasn't dreaming ...it's indeed him.
John moved closer...presented me with a beautiful bouquet of fresh-cut flowers.
I loved the sweet scents.
I was so impressed with his gestures.
He held my hands and led me to the dining table.
He offered me a glass of Chardonnay.
John and I had a fabulous dinner.
Would you care to dance?" he queried.
We stood face to face as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
It felt so good to have him so close.
As we dance, he hugged me so tightly as if he didn't want to loose me.
I could feel the maleness of his strong body as he held me tighter.
John bent to kiss my cheek....my neck...my earlobes.... and gently nibbling the tender skin.
While I responded in delight.
As our lips made contact....I was overwhelmed....
We then...........kiss passionately.
I definitely felt a spark during the kiss because I’d never felt anything like it before.
I felt a thrill...and so was he.
What's next ?
...stay tune for the next episode.
Make sure you read my in coming postings....
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Who is John ?
The Mystical Portrait ~2
Who is John?
The figure of the portrait in the dilapidated mansion.
Who is he ?
Was he....the owner of the mansion whom had gone missing years ago ?
No one knows about his whereabouts.
Was he dead ?
No one could provide an answer.
If he's dead, there's no sign of his corpse anywhere within the mansion.
John just vanished mysteriously.
People had seen him wandering along the vincinity at night.
But his figure would disappear in the thin air when approached.
People believe John was dead howevere there isn't any proof because his body was never found.
Others believe John is still alive but he prefers to stay away from the world.
Many eerie happenings occured in the mansion hence people fear to go near it.
Even the drug addicts are scared to enter it. Perhaps this mansion is only preoccupied by the spiritual kind.
Juicy titbits of past events related to this dilapidated mansion are often heard. John had built this magnificent mansion and then left it to ruin. Why ?
There's no answers to all these queries.
This handsome gentleman in the portrait remained a mystery.
Who is John ?
Who is John?
The figure of the portrait in the dilapidated mansion.
Who is he ?
Was he....the owner of the mansion whom had gone missing years ago ?
No one knows about his whereabouts.
Was he dead ?
No one could provide an answer.
If he's dead, there's no sign of his corpse anywhere within the mansion.
John just vanished mysteriously.
People had seen him wandering along the vincinity at night.
But his figure would disappear in the thin air when approached.
People believe John was dead howevere there isn't any proof because his body was never found.
Others believe John is still alive but he prefers to stay away from the world.
Many eerie happenings occured in the mansion hence people fear to go near it.
Even the drug addicts are scared to enter it. Perhaps this mansion is only preoccupied by the spiritual kind.
Juicy titbits of past events related to this dilapidated mansion are often heard. John had built this magnificent mansion and then left it to ruin. Why ?
There's no answers to all these queries.
This handsome gentleman in the portrait remained a mystery.
Who is John ?
Monday, July 28, 2008
The Mystical Portrait
The room looked rather gloomy and chilly.
The furniture remained untouched.
Cob webs were everywhere....a tell-tale sign that this building had been abandon for years.
I surveyed the area to look for more clues.
Perhaps this desolate building do have a colourful past or charming history to reveal ?
I accidentedly kicked a chair which made a loud thud on the entire building.
Hundreds of black flying objects emerged from the adjacent hall.
They flew towards me. I quickly lied face down on the parquet floor to avoid them.
When I realised it was a colony of bats, I began to fear for my safety.
"What if they belong to a dracula or witch?"
"Are these creatures poisonous?"
"Do they have venoms like those of snakes?"
I tried to calm myself down. Perhaps their serene habitat had been interupted by my presence.
They must have gotten a shock too and awaken from their comfort zone.
As I gained my composure, this peculiar portrait caught my attention. The gentleman in the picture was looking into my direction. I could sensed the sadness through his eyes.
Guess...he must be the owner of this dilapidated mansion. He seems like wanting to communicate with me. His lips looked as if he had something to tell....
He looked so real although it was merely a painting.
A word "John" was embedded at the bottom of the picture. I assumed this must be his name.
Judging from his picture.....John must be someone rich and famous.
Many questions were circulating in my mind.
A spell being cast onto John...and turned him into a painting.
Possible ?
John was murdered and his body was buried at the backyard.
Another possibility.
John became crazy after he got bankrupt over some business deals.
Possible too.
I was kinda obsessed by this handsome face.
I had never laid my eyes on such a masculine hunky figure.
I took out a hanky from my pocket. I wiped the dust on John's face.
I wanted to have a clearer view of him.
Suddenly, the chandelier came crashing down just a short distance from the spot where I was standing. The entire room was filled with dust which blinded my eyes for a moment.
When I gotten back my vision, John's picture vanished. All that left was a blank white canvas. John was no where to be seen. I searched frantically for him but failed.
I did not freak out although deep inside...I was scared.
"Hey, John is merely a painting...how could it disappear like that...?" I told myself.
The room was filled with a scent...a very soothing smell.
I could hear a faint squeaky sound coming from the balcony. It sounded like a moving swing....
There it was......
A figure which looked like John swaying on the garden swing. He was exactly like the gentleman in the portrait...muscular gentleman.
He vanished when I try to get closer.
Who is John.?
To be continue...
The furniture remained untouched.
Cob webs were everywhere....a tell-tale sign that this building had been abandon for years.
I surveyed the area to look for more clues.
Perhaps this desolate building do have a colourful past or charming history to reveal ?
I accidentedly kicked a chair which made a loud thud on the entire building.
Hundreds of black flying objects emerged from the adjacent hall.
They flew towards me. I quickly lied face down on the parquet floor to avoid them.
When I realised it was a colony of bats, I began to fear for my safety.
"What if they belong to a dracula or witch?"
"Are these creatures poisonous?"
"Do they have venoms like those of snakes?"
I tried to calm myself down. Perhaps their serene habitat had been interupted by my presence.
They must have gotten a shock too and awaken from their comfort zone.
As I gained my composure, this peculiar portrait caught my attention. The gentleman in the picture was looking into my direction. I could sensed the sadness through his eyes.
Guess...he must be the owner of this dilapidated mansion. He seems like wanting to communicate with me. His lips looked as if he had something to tell....
He looked so real although it was merely a painting.
A word "John" was embedded at the bottom of the picture. I assumed this must be his name.
Judging from his picture.....John must be someone rich and famous.
Many questions were circulating in my mind.
A spell being cast onto John...and turned him into a painting.
Possible ?
John was murdered and his body was buried at the backyard.
Another possibility.
John became crazy after he got bankrupt over some business deals.
Possible too.
I was kinda obsessed by this handsome face.
I had never laid my eyes on such a masculine hunky figure.
I took out a hanky from my pocket. I wiped the dust on John's face.
I wanted to have a clearer view of him.
Suddenly, the chandelier came crashing down just a short distance from the spot where I was standing. The entire room was filled with dust which blinded my eyes for a moment.
When I gotten back my vision, John's picture vanished. All that left was a blank white canvas. John was no where to be seen. I searched frantically for him but failed.
I did not freak out although deep inside...I was scared.
"Hey, John is merely a painting...how could it disappear like that...?" I told myself.
The room was filled with a scent...a very soothing smell.
I could hear a faint squeaky sound coming from the balcony. It sounded like a moving swing....
There it was......
A figure which looked like John swaying on the garden swing. He was exactly like the gentleman in the portrait...muscular gentleman.
He vanished when I try to get closer.
Who is John.?
To be continue...
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Exam Blues
Both my PC and HP were flooded with emails and SMSes last night.
Received endless...spotted questions @ soalan bocor.
However....I can't trust them completely.....
I doubt over them....perhaps it must have been from those who wants to divert our concentrations else where....by circulating those so-called leaked questions.
It usually occurs during exams periods.
No intentions of relying too much on these "prank questions".
hahaha..."Ann..acting cool"
Gonna sit for the exam at approx. 8 hours time....
Amaziiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingly.....there's no 'butterflies in my stomach right now.
And I'm just not feeling worried about it.
Just can't get the fear like usual.
Am distracted and not really concentrating.
It would be different if I felt like I was going to score distinction in this paper....but I'm not.
It's hard.
I'll do okay in it, probably a ~B~, but only if the right questions come up.
Should have done more reading much earlier...but now it's too late.
I could only depend on my lucky stars...
I ought to be getting back to my module...... wish me luck !
Received endless...spotted questions @ soalan bocor.
However....I can't trust them completely.....
I doubt over them....perhaps it must have been from those who wants to divert our concentrations else where....by circulating those so-called leaked questions.
It usually occurs during exams periods.
No intentions of relying too much on these "prank questions".
hahaha..."Ann..acting cool"
Gonna sit for the exam at approx. 8 hours time....
Amaziiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingly.....there's no 'butterflies in my stomach right now.
And I'm just not feeling worried about it.
Just can't get the fear like usual.
Am distracted and not really concentrating.
It would be different if I felt like I was going to score distinction in this paper....but I'm not.
It's hard.
I'll do okay in it, probably a ~B~, but only if the right questions come up.
Should have done more reading much earlier...but now it's too late.
I could only depend on my lucky stars...
I ought to be getting back to my module...... wish me luck !
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Nightmares on Ann's street
Yup...it's 4 am now. And I just woke up from a dreaded dream.....!
Lately, had been experiencing a string of nightmares.
One moment, someone was trying to kill me...next a nasty car mishap.....and then lying in a cold dark coffin....and many more..which am unable to recall when I opened my eyes. One thing for sure, they were always frightening affairs .....with the fact that I was sweating profusely in an air conditioned room.
Hey...this ain't Dana Scully & Fox Mulder unsolved mysteries...
BUT ........real happenings in "The Ann's Files".
Perhaps in the near future, I could even write a few posts about my scary dreams in my blog.
"Ann's nightmares-The sequel" with extraordinary plots...
Great idea...huh?
Probably due to my stressful days. Had been under a heave dose of stress lately. Am unable to sleep well at night which led to all those episodes of scary occurrences.
Rudely awaken by frightening monsters in the wee hours of morn.
And experiencing Freddy Kruger lookalike coming after me....
Or getting imprison in a dilapidated building inhabited by ghostly things...
The devils never leave you alive....muahaaaahaa
Thriller....thriller nites
My nightmares....seems like a nightly affairs many days in a row.
All these had taken a great toll on my well being esp. my concentrations.
Stressed....is the word.
Any suggestion how to reduce the tensions?
Lately, had been experiencing a string of nightmares.
One moment, someone was trying to kill me...next a nasty car mishap.....and then lying in a cold dark coffin....and many more..which am unable to recall when I opened my eyes. One thing for sure, they were always frightening affairs .....with the fact that I was sweating profusely in an air conditioned room.
Hey...this ain't Dana Scully & Fox Mulder unsolved mysteries...
BUT ........real happenings in "The Ann's Files".
Perhaps in the near future, I could even write a few posts about my scary dreams in my blog.
"Ann's nightmares-The sequel" with extraordinary plots...
Great idea...huh?
Probably due to my stressful days. Had been under a heave dose of stress lately. Am unable to sleep well at night which led to all those episodes of scary occurrences.
Rudely awaken by frightening monsters in the wee hours of morn.
And experiencing Freddy Kruger lookalike coming after me....
Or getting imprison in a dilapidated building inhabited by ghostly things...
The devils never leave you alive....muahaaaahaa
Thriller....thriller nites
My nightmares....seems like a nightly affairs many days in a row.
All these had taken a great toll on my well being esp. my concentrations.
Stressed....is the word.
Any suggestion how to reduce the tensions?
Friday, July 25, 2008
My Jigsaw Life
I blogged about our jigsaw project yesterday. It's still partially done...many pieces to go but we're adamant to complete this mission that we had started on.
Talking about jigsaw....I would like to associate it with our everyday lives.
Let me tell you a story.
It would definitely take ages for John to accomplish a single picture if he assembles the 10,000 pieces giant puzzle individually....one by one.
However, if John could see, visualise and imagine the total picture of the jigsaw, he's will surely know exactly what he's building. Then, the task would be much easier and simpler ....fitting each puzzle into place.
Reality....
Just take a look at me. Day in day out, I used to fret about my 'hardship' of undergoing my studies....the sufferings I had to endure as a part time student....juggling between my teaching responsibilities as well as my other commitments esp as a provider to my child.
I faced the hardship probably because......
I started off fixing the jigsaw one by one. I spent long hours working on it without a proper goal. At the end of the day, I get pretty stressed up and began to blame everything ......
Four long years
rushing to accomplish...assignments after assignments,
never ending examinations...
sacrificing weekends ..attending long tutorials....and the list goes on
Now
If I turn the table the other way....and try to visualise the fruit of my labour...I would probably be much happier.
Picturing myself...in robe and mortar board walking up the stage receiving my scroll....on my graduation day...And most importantly...getting my DG41 in 2011....
With a potrait of success..., then most probably, I would not feel so much stress as I am am now.
I need to set my goals. Scribble on papers and paste them all over my house...so that I could see and visualised them everyday.
What say you..?
Opps...I'm supposed to do my very much needed revision but instead I'm blogging "rubbish" over here.
Talking about jigsaw....I would like to associate it with our everyday lives.
Let me tell you a story.
It would definitely take ages for John to accomplish a single picture if he assembles the 10,000 pieces giant puzzle individually....one by one.
However, if John could see, visualise and imagine the total picture of the jigsaw, he's will surely know exactly what he's building. Then, the task would be much easier and simpler ....fitting each puzzle into place.
Reality....
Just take a look at me. Day in day out, I used to fret about my 'hardship' of undergoing my studies....the sufferings I had to endure as a part time student....juggling between my teaching responsibilities as well as my other commitments esp as a provider to my child.
I faced the hardship probably because......
I started off fixing the jigsaw one by one. I spent long hours working on it without a proper goal. At the end of the day, I get pretty stressed up and began to blame everything ......
Four long years
rushing to accomplish...assignments after assignments,
never ending examinations...
sacrificing weekends ..attending long tutorials....and the list goes on
Now
If I turn the table the other way....and try to visualise the fruit of my labour...I would probably be much happier.
Picturing myself...in robe and mortar board walking up the stage receiving my scroll....on my graduation day...And most importantly...getting my DG41 in 2011....
With a potrait of success..., then most probably, I would not feel so much stress as I am am now.
I need to set my goals. Scribble on papers and paste them all over my house...so that I could see and visualised them everyday.
What say you..?
Opps...I'm supposed to do my very much needed revision but instead I'm blogging "rubbish" over here.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Jigsaw Puzzles
Recently.....my son kept pestering me to get him a a box of jigsaw puzzles....Wondering why this lil rascal suddenly gotten interested in such hobby ?
I was a bit reluctant to buy one as I don't expect him to be able to perform such task. This young man would surely loose his interest and give up pretty soon. Naturally a tedious task to fix tiny pieces of picture together. The incomplete piece would soon ended up into the heap of rubbish in no time.
On a contradiction, perhaps I should give it a try. The matching and fixing job.... would definitely occupied much of his time.....say..a month or more....! At least, this hobby is better than him getting 'glued to the TV" on weekends.
I also believe that this task will build his patience. It also applies one of Gardner's Multiple Intelligences @ Visual Spartial. Accomodates his spare time meaningfully. So..it's a good idea..after all.
I bought him one set @ 5000 pieces.
As soon as we arrived home, without wasting a single second....he unwrapped the box. getting pretty excited over his new toy. Hopefully....he's NOT....."hangat-hangat tahi ayam" and gotten bored over it in a couple of days.
He began his 'project' almost immediately. He sorted out the many pieces according to colours and shapes....and then layed them pieces by pieces by pieces on a cardboard. Looks like he knows what he's doing and plans his strategy well.
Cheers for my boy....7 year old child..... !
He indulged in this passion whenever he has time to spare.....as if he's building a huge castle for the king. I could see that he is very much into it.
I made him promise that he would only 'play' with his puzzle after completing all his school work. Deal or no deal ! Mesti deal punya.....
For the past weeks, he was so passionate over his new found hobby. He searched, looked, matched tiny pieces........with full concentration.
On several occasions, I too joined him in this activity...figuring and fixing bits of pictures. Mind you...".....the more pieces you fixed, you'll tend to get more addicted towards it...sort of like achieving a certain task....and you'll enjoy it"
The next thing I knew.... I was sitting beside my boy in the study room...... hahahaha
Now it's a "mother-son team". I noticed that the quality time both of us spent in this 'mission' is valuable. We shared and discussed....in this joint ventured task.
Funny ya....such a simple game could actually bind an adult and child together. It's like a bridge joining two generations.
I intend to frame the master piece once completed....!
It's definitely going to brighten up our humble living room.
At this moment, the puzzle is still half way done.
I was a bit reluctant to buy one as I don't expect him to be able to perform such task. This young man would surely loose his interest and give up pretty soon. Naturally a tedious task to fix tiny pieces of picture together. The incomplete piece would soon ended up into the heap of rubbish in no time.
On a contradiction, perhaps I should give it a try. The matching and fixing job.... would definitely occupied much of his time.....say..a month or more....! At least, this hobby is better than him getting 'glued to the TV" on weekends.
I also believe that this task will build his patience. It also applies one of Gardner's Multiple Intelligences @ Visual Spartial. Accomodates his spare time meaningfully. So..it's a good idea..after all.
I bought him one set @ 5000 pieces.
As soon as we arrived home, without wasting a single second....he unwrapped the box. getting pretty excited over his new toy. Hopefully....he's NOT....."hangat-hangat tahi ayam" and gotten bored over it in a couple of days.
He began his 'project' almost immediately. He sorted out the many pieces according to colours and shapes....and then layed them pieces by pieces by pieces on a cardboard. Looks like he knows what he's doing and plans his strategy well.
Cheers for my boy....7 year old child..... !
He indulged in this passion whenever he has time to spare.....as if he's building a huge castle for the king. I could see that he is very much into it.
I made him promise that he would only 'play' with his puzzle after completing all his school work. Deal or no deal ! Mesti deal punya.....
For the past weeks, he was so passionate over his new found hobby. He searched, looked, matched tiny pieces........with full concentration.
On several occasions, I too joined him in this activity...figuring and fixing bits of pictures. Mind you...".....the more pieces you fixed, you'll tend to get more addicted towards it...sort of like achieving a certain task....and you'll enjoy it"
The next thing I knew.... I was sitting beside my boy in the study room...... hahahaha
Now it's a "mother-son team". I noticed that the quality time both of us spent in this 'mission' is valuable. We shared and discussed....in this joint ventured task.
Funny ya....such a simple game could actually bind an adult and child together. It's like a bridge joining two generations.
I intend to frame the master piece once completed....!
It's definitely going to brighten up our humble living room.
At this moment, the puzzle is still half way done.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Someone's trying to kill me !
I was walking along an eerie looking alley all by myself......with no sight of any human. The entire lane was pin-drop quiet except for the occasional meowing of the nuisance cats. I could even hear the throbbing sound of my own heartbeat...thub thub thub....!
Suddenly..I felt hands strangulating my neck so tight. I couldn't breathe. I was fighting to grasp for air. The pain was unbearable. I struggled to free myself but failed. I was simply too weak to overpower this great force. I continued to struggle.
Am I confronting with a murderer, rapist, sex maniac, monster, alien....?
I'm so scared....all my spine went weak.
My next move....SCREAM...SHOUT .....CALL FOR HELP.....
No matter how hard I tried, no sound emerged from my throat.
Who would want to kill an angel like me ? Am quite puzzle....??????
Then I was awaken quite suddenly with my entire pyjama drenched up even though the air conditioner was at the lowest temperature.
My pillow almost covering my entire face. No wonder, I couldn't breathe.
I turned to look at the clock....it's 3 am !
I was at the peak of a scarry nightmare.
My brain must have been too active the night before.
Oh....
Am feeling pretty tired deep inside and yet unable to get back to sleep. Tossed left and right and tried various positions..just to return to slumber land....FAILED
Therefore, I switch-on the lights ~ open my module ~ hoping that I could cover a chapter or two before I go off to school...
Oh...am unable to concentrate...my mind just isn't ready for "absorptions".
Gotten an idea....Better update my blog.
Did I mentioned that I was busied performing "community service"...helping a neighbouring school reorganise their library..! Sacrificed my precious afternoons .....when I was supposed to do revision...!
Am feeling a lil sleepy now after writing this. I still have an hour or so....to catch 40 winks before it's time for school. I shall used my electronic eye massager...so that I don't develop Po's eyes.
Looks like blogging can cure insomnia....! Funny but it works...ya !
Mission Accomplished.
Suddenly..I felt hands strangulating my neck so tight. I couldn't breathe. I was fighting to grasp for air. The pain was unbearable. I struggled to free myself but failed. I was simply too weak to overpower this great force. I continued to struggle.
Am I confronting with a murderer, rapist, sex maniac, monster, alien....?
I'm so scared....all my spine went weak.
My next move....SCREAM...SHOUT .....CALL FOR HELP.....
No matter how hard I tried, no sound emerged from my throat.
Who would want to kill an angel like me ? Am quite puzzle....??????
Then I was awaken quite suddenly with my entire pyjama drenched up even though the air conditioner was at the lowest temperature.
My pillow almost covering my entire face. No wonder, I couldn't breathe.
I turned to look at the clock....it's 3 am !
I was at the peak of a scarry nightmare.
My brain must have been too active the night before.
Oh....
Am feeling pretty tired deep inside and yet unable to get back to sleep. Tossed left and right and tried various positions..just to return to slumber land....FAILED
Therefore, I switch-on the lights ~ open my module ~ hoping that I could cover a chapter or two before I go off to school...
Oh...am unable to concentrate...my mind just isn't ready for "absorptions".
Gotten an idea....Better update my blog.
Did I mentioned that I was busied performing "community service"...helping a neighbouring school reorganise their library..! Sacrificed my precious afternoons .....when I was supposed to do revision...!
Am feeling a lil sleepy now after writing this. I still have an hour or so....to catch 40 winks before it's time for school. I shall used my electronic eye massager...so that I don't develop Po's eyes.
Looks like blogging can cure insomnia....! Funny but it works...ya !
Mission Accomplished.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Additional Work
This week is gonna be a busy week again for yours truly. I was asked by our District Education department (Jabatan Pendidikan Daerah) to..........arghhh................
They want me to help a nearby school to set up / upgrade their school Resource Centre (Pusat Sumber) @ library. For 4 days from 2.00-5.00 pm, I have to sacrifice my time to help another school to beautify their library. You see...I rather spend those hours with the upkeep of my own library....why should I 'sponsor' my time and energy for other people's school ?
It's like "lembu punya susu, sapi punya nama"...I am really mad with this arrangement.
The sickening part is that....I have to reschedule my tuition classes and then replace them on other days....which spoilt all my other plans. I hated this.
Moreover, I need these precious hours to study..coz my exam is on Sunday 27/07.
I was so damn mad when I got hold of the calling letter via fax last Friday.
Alright...alright...on a positive side..I'm actually performing a community service...right?
So..I think..it's a great noble job to lend a hand to people in need.
Ya....
They want me to help a nearby school to set up / upgrade their school Resource Centre (Pusat Sumber) @ library. For 4 days from 2.00-5.00 pm, I have to sacrifice my time to help another school to beautify their library. You see...I rather spend those hours with the upkeep of my own library....why should I 'sponsor' my time and energy for other people's school ?
It's like "lembu punya susu, sapi punya nama"...I am really mad with this arrangement.
The sickening part is that....I have to reschedule my tuition classes and then replace them on other days....which spoilt all my other plans. I hated this.
Moreover, I need these precious hours to study..coz my exam is on Sunday 27/07.
I was so damn mad when I got hold of the calling letter via fax last Friday.
Alright...alright...on a positive side..I'm actually performing a community service...right?
So..I think..it's a great noble job to lend a hand to people in need.
Ya....
Sunday, July 20, 2008
My Sunday
It's raining dogs and cats. Quite suddenly falling from the sky...as if someone is getting pretty angry up there. Gotten wet...while salvaging my partially dry laundry outside.
Did a lil of spring cleaning yesterday...replacing my dirty curtains. Didn't expect a wet weather today. Hopefully...the large cloth can dry up under the fan of max speed.
Luckily, I had completed my "market" chore this morning. Ya..I stocked up my weekly groceries on Sundays. I go to the pasar every Sunday...the place where I get my veggie, chicken, fish....!
There's a fridge in my kitchen which is big enough to store all my 5 days ration.
I love to visit the Sunday 'Pasar Pagi' because there would be additional makeshift stalls along the road side....exhibiting their "products" from household utensils to food..etc.
The Highlight is the rows of clothes stalls. Many a times, one could lay their hands on 'designer fashions" at the lowest price. Much cheaper than those sola at the Supermarts. On Sundays, there would usually be about 10 stalls selling clothes alone...! I would patrolled from one stall to another...browsing thru the clothes..though fake but who cares..as long I am comfortable in it... ! The best part is...it doesn't create a deep hole in my purse. haha
I usually spend about 2 hours at the market. As my boy is attending his Dhamma class ...it's convenient for me to wait for him while performing my errands. Sometimes, I would have tim sum with mum. Or visiting friends.. !
That's how I normally spend the early part of my sundays..
Sigh...
the rain is still blasting followed by occasional roar of thunder and lightning.
It's so nice to be able to cocoon under the sheets ....
Didn't sleep well last night..thanks to the dose of caffeine the evening b4 at Kopitiam.
Perfect time for a good long nap ...even better ...with that someone beside me as my bolster.
sleep only la........what are you guys thinking of..le????? Very imaginative.
I like the cool temperature on such a lazy Sunday noon.
Too bad..I have a class to attend later. The children will be arriving soon.
Work..work work..
Perhaps late evening, I will need to go Carrefour to get some household items.
Wanna join me...?????
Did a lil of spring cleaning yesterday...replacing my dirty curtains. Didn't expect a wet weather today. Hopefully...the large cloth can dry up under the fan of max speed.
Luckily, I had completed my "market" chore this morning. Ya..I stocked up my weekly groceries on Sundays. I go to the pasar every Sunday...the place where I get my veggie, chicken, fish....!
There's a fridge in my kitchen which is big enough to store all my 5 days ration.
I love to visit the Sunday 'Pasar Pagi' because there would be additional makeshift stalls along the road side....exhibiting their "products" from household utensils to food..etc.
The Highlight is the rows of clothes stalls. Many a times, one could lay their hands on 'designer fashions" at the lowest price. Much cheaper than those sola at the Supermarts. On Sundays, there would usually be about 10 stalls selling clothes alone...! I would patrolled from one stall to another...browsing thru the clothes..though fake but who cares..as long I am comfortable in it... ! The best part is...it doesn't create a deep hole in my purse. haha
I usually spend about 2 hours at the market. As my boy is attending his Dhamma class ...it's convenient for me to wait for him while performing my errands. Sometimes, I would have tim sum with mum. Or visiting friends.. !
That's how I normally spend the early part of my sundays..
Sigh...
the rain is still blasting followed by occasional roar of thunder and lightning.
It's so nice to be able to cocoon under the sheets ....
Didn't sleep well last night..thanks to the dose of caffeine the evening b4 at Kopitiam.
Perfect time for a good long nap ...even better ...with that someone beside me as my bolster.
sleep only la........what are you guys thinking of..le????? Very imaginative.
I like the cool temperature on such a lazy Sunday noon.
Too bad..I have a class to attend later. The children will be arriving soon.
Work..work work..
Perhaps late evening, I will need to go Carrefour to get some household items.
Wanna join me...?????
Thursday, July 17, 2008
37th Birthday on the 17th
Today's ...my birthday.
An additional candle on my cake plus the extra strand of greys on my head as well as a few more lines below my eyes.....
Those wrinkles aren't gonna spoil my mood but the exam that I'm going to face later today.
You can do it, Ann.
Wow, 37 sounds sort of old, but then again, the is no escape route.
Growing old gracefully...
Thank Lord Buddha....I'm living a wonderful life.
I love birthdays because it’s like my own personal new year’s day. I like to look ahead at the upcoming year and make some plans for how I want to live this year like no other before it. It’s fun to reflect on all of the blessings I have in my life.
Every year, my birthday wish would be ...my boy growing up smart and healthy.
My ricebowl..my job running smoothly.
This year, the focus is on my studies. I hope to be able to grad like all my fellow buddies...though I have to swim thru extra obstacles.
I won't be going out going out to celebrate as I'm busy with my studies.
Perhaps...some other time. To be able to open my eyes every morning is already a blessing. Everyday is my birthday.
Hope someone is generous with my birthday present !!!!!
I love the suprise and thoughfulness that remind me how much I'm loved.
And I'll spend some $$$ on some new clothes which I desperately need. I’m going to buy some working clothes so that I could cat walk to school. Once a while. ...it's fun to be the center of attention....hahaha
I can’t wait to go shopping but I'll have to wait till end of this month...where exams is over and gaji sudah masuk.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANN
An additional candle on my cake plus the extra strand of greys on my head as well as a few more lines below my eyes.....
Those wrinkles aren't gonna spoil my mood but the exam that I'm going to face later today.
You can do it, Ann.
Wow, 37 sounds sort of old, but then again, the is no escape route.
Growing old gracefully...
Thank Lord Buddha....I'm living a wonderful life.
I love birthdays because it’s like my own personal new year’s day. I like to look ahead at the upcoming year and make some plans for how I want to live this year like no other before it. It’s fun to reflect on all of the blessings I have in my life.
Every year, my birthday wish would be ...my boy growing up smart and healthy.
My ricebowl..my job running smoothly.
This year, the focus is on my studies. I hope to be able to grad like all my fellow buddies...though I have to swim thru extra obstacles.
I won't be going out going out to celebrate as I'm busy with my studies.
Perhaps...some other time. To be able to open my eyes every morning is already a blessing. Everyday is my birthday.
Hope someone is generous with my birthday present !!!!!
I love the suprise and thoughfulness that remind me how much I'm loved.
And I'll spend some $$$ on some new clothes which I desperately need. I’m going to buy some working clothes so that I could cat walk to school. Once a while. ...it's fun to be the center of attention....hahaha
I can’t wait to go shopping but I'll have to wait till end of this month...where exams is over and gaji sudah masuk.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANN
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Exams on 17th
Though lost the battle, but ain't giving up. Would continue to strive to achive what I had planned to achieve. With strong determinations, I know very well I could do it. Dealt with the dillemma already. Already picked the one that I'm suppose to choose....with Lord Buddha's guidance.
I'll be taking my exams......2 papers for this sem. 17 and 27 of this month. Had gone thru almost all topics in my modules...it all depends on how much my brain could absorb. The amount I could remember and recall.....
Guess..with my mechanical brain, I could flopped thru quite briskly. HOPEFULLY la.
I'll be taking my exams......2 papers for this sem. 17 and 27 of this month. Had gone thru almost all topics in my modules...it all depends on how much my brain could absorb. The amount I could remember and recall.....
Guess..with my mechanical brain, I could flopped thru quite briskly. HOPEFULLY la.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Dilemma
DILEMMA
The word itself is pretty scarry.
It is a problem offering at least two solutions and possibilities.
I'm at lost now. Totally LOST. Completely lost.
Guess..I need to take a few days break to get things settled.
Am in a messy situation right now.
No...it has nothing to do with personal relationship....but..
Should I...or shouldn't I..?
Choose only one...
Dilemma...
Oh
The word itself is pretty scarry.
It is a problem offering at least two solutions and possibilities.
I'm at lost now. Totally LOST. Completely lost.
Guess..I need to take a few days break to get things settled.
Am in a messy situation right now.
No...it has nothing to do with personal relationship....but..
Should I...or shouldn't I..?
Choose only one...
Dilemma...
Oh
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Second chance
Becoming a single mum can be a tricky time but I'm glad that things has finally settled down. I've learnt to put the past behind and move on.
And now I'm ready to take the plunge back into the world of dating.
However..I'm in no hurry. I have the time and it's not my priority.
When I decide to dive into it, I realised that the rule has changed.
I have a child, so dating is no longer just about myself.
And while, I bear this in mind......
This new relationship is gonna take a combination of communication, confidence and consideration to make sure things run smoothly as desire. Pursuing it in a mature and responsible way. Honouring myself as woman first and mum comes next.
Guess...I deserve a second chance.
And now I'm ready to take the plunge back into the world of dating.
However..I'm in no hurry. I have the time and it's not my priority.
When I decide to dive into it, I realised that the rule has changed.
I have a child, so dating is no longer just about myself.
And while, I bear this in mind......
This new relationship is gonna take a combination of communication, confidence and consideration to make sure things run smoothly as desire. Pursuing it in a mature and responsible way. Honouring myself as woman first and mum comes next.
Guess...I deserve a second chance.
Friday, July 4, 2008
I have a date.
Today's Friday...put aside all work and worries ....let's enjoy the weekends.
I've a dinner date this evening.
I have a dinner date tonight, yes dinner. We had several luncheon meetings previously but today we progressed to dinner. (Hey..just a casual friendship...and see how it develops from here).
So now I am going to put a little make up and dress a little nicer with few pieces of nice jewelry.
It would be a simple dinner. We would be opting for a Jap. restaurant (I requested). I like the ambiguity in a Japanese environment.
Food and more conversation (similar wave length).
.. but most likely I will be in my usual self ..I can be talkative as the parrot and other wise tongue tied...it depends on the topics.
Dinner is not so bad as I thought but it is fun any way.. and I don't usually meet new people.. therefore..am a little nervous.
However ...I am just going to enjoy myself... take a deep breathe and relax.
I am glad I have some place to write now and release some of my nerves before he arrives.
Thanks for reading my blog...
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Mural Painting
I am planning to draw a mural painting at the entrance of my library. Since we are currently having a large group of trainee teachers undergoing their practical stint at my school (for a duration of 3 months), I think it would be great to make use of their expertise to do this chore for me.
I don't intend to bully them la. But they need to contribute a project work during their stay here. It's part of their training procedure. And it's stated in their coursework.
I will inform my boss regarding this idea.
I had thought of a nice phrase for the mural.
"It's better to be a bookworm rather than a lazyworm"
Do you have any other suggestion ?
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Today differs, I took a noon nap.
I just woke up from a nap a while ago.
I usually don't indulge in this habit and I seldom take noon naps even though I'm dog tired....Whenever I nap too long during the day, I would I wake up in a strange state ! I have this distant, solemn, otherworldly type of feeling deep down. I become very reflective ...superficial self.
That's why I often avoid naps at noon.
But perhaps today was a bit differ.
Why was I napping?
There are a couple of reasons.
- I was pretty stressed out...and I wanna to be "lazy" for the rest of the day.
- The weather was so humid and it made me sleepy.
- The air cond was in full blast at the lowest ever temperature...Fabulous
- My cozy bedroom was so damn inviting just now....minus the sleeping partner or else it would be oomph..! "WINK
This week was really a long week ~ lots going on both at home and school. Ain't enough sleep at night. Last few weeks were bad as I was rushing through my assignments.
My entire body are aching due to the "coolie job" I did in school. FYI, I'm in charged of the school library. Yes..the entire library is run by yours truly ALONE. Yes..I do have a few teachers whom are appointed to assist me..but as you know lah..I have this weakness to delegate work to others. As a results, the workloads are siphoned to ME alone. It's like "one leg kicks all". Will blog about my Librarian Post ( Guru Perpustakaan & Media) next time.
Last week, I've got a new set of book racks to replace the old ones. The old racks were not strong to uphold the heavy weight of those thick bulky dictionaries, encyclopedias...
I had to reorganised the entire library (all by myself). Played the role of "Eric Deco" (imagine lah), I redesign the lay out of the entire library. Push, drag, pull.......the tables, chairs, racks, shelves..of vary sizes.....! I was lucky as I had gotten the help of a few strong Year 5 boys. I "kurang ajar" today....hey not that I'm rude but literary means that didn't teach much today. I gave some revision exercises to my pupils while I busied with the work.
Both arms are aching terribly due to carrying the loads of heavy furniture and books. Ouch...
Need someone to massage my aching arms....!!!!!!
Since I could find anyone who is willing to be my masseur....I went to sleep with the hope the pain would disappear when I wake up...
That answers to the previous question.
Todays differs...and I took a noon nap...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I need a break
I am blogging right now to release tension...!
With the amount of workloads and stress that I'm facing at school....I'm wishing that I'm 55 today..so that I could bid farewell to all these baggage on my shoulders.
The gunny sacks of loads comprises of a percentage of "pressure, headaches, tension, heartaches". All of them are the main ingredients of "STRESS".
Yup I spelt the word correctly..don't I ?
I need a break....away from work..work..work.
These had taken a great toll on my life being....
So much paperwork...which aren't relevant to my core business @ teaching. Submission of unnecessary documents, files and reports which are consuming a whole lots of my working hours. The education department kept demanding for all sorts of paper documentations. Ya...thought of going 'paperless" to lessen our workload..but it never happen.
Just imagine the number of trees being sacrificed for this purpose !
In addition to to paperload, I'm also facing with lots of disciplinary and attitude problems of our current pupils in school. Their behaviour...their laziness, their lack of interest in studies, ill discipline.......
And the current trend of parents....attacking teachers in schools. Parents seems to believe their children more than the teachers. Children today rarely respect their teachers.
How do you expect a child to respect his/her teacher when he/she is being brainwash daily to look down on teachers ?
Even the mass media are aggravating the situation by condemning teachers in their daily reports. Take a look at today's society....do they still respect Cikgu like those glorious days ?
Aiyo...over the weekends, I was in a rather good mood after a nice facial session....now I'm back to my usual tensed mood just two days apart.
Sigh...I need a break.
Sigh...I need a break.
How about a lil pay rise..so that I could spend a lil on a short vaccation..?????
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